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I’m Thankful for answered prayers

I’m Thankful for answered prayers

Have you ever prayed for something and your prayers were answered in the most amazing way?

I have! So on this 4th day of #30DaysofPraise I have to share with you how awesome our God is and how if we truly trust him to answer our prayers when and how he feels is best for us, we’ll never doubt him.

It was just about 2 years ago I received a call from my son Shane saying that his ex-girlfriend called and told him that she was pregnant with his child. This didn’t really surprise me but I’ll be honest I was deeply saddened because I had this vision of my kids getting married THEN having children. I knew in my spirit that it was his baby even though there was some talk that it might not be.

Shane and her were not getting back together but the mom wanted me to be a part of the baby’s life so she sent me a friend request on Facebook and I was able to watch my grand baby grow within her belly.

Then one day she was not only not my friend she had blocked me. I was devastated! I called my son and I remember him saying something about him not wanting to be in his baby’s life and that he didn’t think it was even his. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. There were so many other rumors I heard but I just couldn’t listen to them.

So many emotions ran through me. How could my son just give up like that? How could he not step up to the plate and be the man I raised him to be? How could the mom just delete me with no explanation? You have to understand. My son has a heart of gold and swore all the time if he ever had a baby he would do everything for it. But, after my mom passed away my son changed. He put up a wall around his heart and has not let anyone else in. I’m in constant prayer for him and I KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that God will restore his heart and he will be the man of God he was created to be!!! but for now he is living for himself.

Well, my grand-daughter was born on May 20, 2011 and the only pictures I saw was when the mom would send pictures of her to my daughter Brianna. She was a spitting image of Brianna and there was NO denying she was my son’s daughter.

There were so many times I wrote a letter to the Mom, only to delete it and re write it. Looking back over the last 1 1/2 yrs. I can see how with each letter I wrote more healing came. Months would go by and when I went back into write again I would find that what I was feeling on the last note was gone and now something new was coming up to the surface.

It was a continual washing by the word of God! It was simply amazing!

About a month ago the mom requested me on Facebook again. I was soooo EXCITED that whole day because I knew God was working out a miracle right before my eyes. I quickly accepted her friend request and went through all the pictures of my beautiful Grand Daughter Orion. Oh she is just so precious and a true gift from God.

Then guess what happened???

The mom wanted me to meet Orion before they moved up to Virginia to live with my son Shane. So she came to visit this past weekend and stayed with us.

The whole weekend I just kept Praising God! Throughout the course of this walk I followed the Holy Spirit. I allowed myself to be led by God and not my emotions. Do you know how hard it was to sit back and do nothing? Knowing I have a grand-daughter out there that I should be a part of her life.

My grand daughter Orion

So many times we allow our emotions to rule us and what we feel should happen. When we do this we miss the opportunity of God working everything out for our good and HIS glory. This miracle had nothing to do with anything I did  because I never sent any of those letters. God never allowed me to, he never led me to, they were for my healing, for my growth and for my faith to grow.  I prayed God would allow me to be a part of my grand daughters life in his perfect timing and no matter what timing that would be I would trust him. This reminds me of the following scripture. I prayed

But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. Matthew 6:6

I had the most amazing weekend getting to know my grand-daughter Orion and her Mommy. God couldn’t have chosen a better Mommy for her. I felt like she was one of my daughters and was so proud of the way she was raising Orion. Oh and Orion has the sweetest spirit and just makes me want to grab those chubby cheeks and squeeze them. I loved, hugged and kissed all over her. We went to the park and just enjoyed the time we had together.

My prayer for you today is that you would have the strength to follow the Holy Spirit no matter what he’s telling you to do. That you would be able to discern between your emotions and the Holy Spirit. That while waiting for your prayer to be answered in the open your faith would grow as well as your relationship with our heavenly father. In Jesus name – Amen!

Is there a prayer you’ve prayed in the secret place that God has answered openly for you? I’d love to hear all about it.

Forgiving Yourself

Forgiving others is hard enough but when it comes to forgiving yourself, I have found it’s so much harder to do. I think by nature we are much harder on ourselves so when we do something we know is not right we beat ourselves up over it. I will never forget the day that I finally forgave myself for the choices I had made in the past.

You see, every time one of my children did something wrong I always blamed myself. It would go something like this…

If you hadn’t got divorced this wouldn’t be happening
If you hadn’t gotten pregnant out of wed lock this wouldn’t be happening
It’s all your fault the kids are the way they are
You got remarried and so that’s where you made your mistake
You let them get away with too much stuff when they were younger… and so on!

You get the drift, right? Looking back now I can see how the enemy had me in so much bondage.

But… God is so faithful and merciful to us.

I was having one of my fits when I was reading the bible and it just so happened that I was reading John 8 where the woman was caught in the act of adultery and they brought her before Jesus. It was like I was there watching the whole scene unfold. Here is this woman busted in the act of adultery and is dragged through the streets to be stoned to death. I’m sure they didn’t let her stop to put on her clothes, they wanted to humiliate her, to have her stoned and ultimately trap Jesus so they could have him arrested.

You see back in Leviticus Moses was given the Torah, which is the law of God and it states,

And the man that committeth adultery with another man’s wife, even he that committeth adultery with his neighbour’s wife, the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death. Leviticus 20:10

 

Now here is this man named Jesus who is doing all these miracles and teaching grace, mercy, love and forgiveness which the Torah (law) was teaching punishment and judgement.

To continue on with the story in John 8…

But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground. 9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” 11 “No one, sir,” she said. “Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”

Not ONE of those people could throw that stone because they ALL had sin and the one without sin that had the right to throw the stone didn’t! Instead, Jesus looked at her, with love, mercy and grace in his eyes and forgave her and simply told her to leave her life of sin and go and sin no more.

That’s it!!! Go and sin no more.

It hit me like a ton of bricks! All the sins I had committed, all the bad choices I had made, all the consequences I was living with were gone in an instant. I had been forgiven all this time and all Jesus was asking me to do is to sin no more, which I was already not walking in that sin anymore. I had been set free but in my mind I was still in prison.

When you finally have that revelation there comes a liberation and freedom that you just can’t explain.

Now when my children make a mistake I no longer beat myself up. I have raised my children to know what is right from wrong. Not in just telling them but being an example to them. The choices they make are their own and they have the power to choose what is right. I don’t have to take any more beatings from myself. YAY! 🙂

Today I pray that if you are beating yourself up over things you did in your past and you have asked God to forgive you that you are able to let it go! Be forgiven and sin no more. Accept your freedom and don’t look back.

Be Blessed,
Audrey

Overcoming Obstacles

Overcoming Obstacles

Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. ~ Psalm 71:20

This past Sunday I had the opportunity to just lounge around and watch movies all day.

My daughter suggested that we watch 127 Hours which is based on a true survival story about a seasoned hiker, Aron Ralston, who gets trapped in a Utah canyon, with his hand caught between a rock and the wall. For 5 1/2 days Aron was left to his thoughts, his memories, the sound of his screams echoing, ants and worse of all the idea of having to cut his own arm off in order to save his life. It was a very intense movie and one that got me wondering if I could do the same thing if put in that situation (not that I want to even find out but nonetheless a thought).


Then I watched the special with Diane Sawyer who interviewed Jaycee Dugard, the young girl that was kidnapped back in 1991 at the age of 11 yrs. and held captive for 18 years of her life. In those 18 years she was repeatedly raped, handcuffed, left alone and at the age of 14 & 17 gave birth to two beautiful little girls. I was in awe as I listened to her talk about this horrific experience with such a peace, a resolve and a strength that goes beyond understanding. When her mother spoke, empathy came over me and I found myself crying for those lost 18 years with her daughter not really knowing if she would ever see her again but holding onto HOPE, just as Jaycee was doing.

[pullquote style=”left” quote=”dark”]The block of granite which was an obstacle in the pathway of the weak, became a stepping-stone in the pathway of the strong. ~ Thomas Carlyle[/pullquote] Just a couple days ago I asked my husband if he thought God gives each of us a mechanism that switches to survivor mode when we are faced with unthinkable things, he said, “Most definitely YES!”

After watching both Aron and Jaycee take this granite (their experiences) and use it as a stepping stone to reach greater heights, I have to agree with my husband. God has created each of us with a survivor mechanism that switches on and he gives us the strength to take the steps we need to take to rise above the granite.

My prayer for you today is that no matter what granite (obstacle) you are facing, that you would not look at it an excuse to stop but look at it as a chance to succeed at whatever you are reaching for.

Be Blessed,
Audrey 🙂

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